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Post by silenthill on Sept 2, 2006 12:33:22 GMT
They never listened to me, either. I'd had years of problems. And it was only when my tumour was huge enough to see, and really painful (morphine had to be given on Christmas Day) that they took notice. I had lots of gynae investigations over 20 years. No one did anything, much. The tumour, finally, was the size of a football. It was benign, so I'm not complaining. But it was nasty, and had started to twist and necrose. That was the cause of the pain. That was why I had to lose so much of my innards - peritoneum, appendix, as well as womb, ovaries,fallopians., and cervix (sadly). A big big deal. I'd had so many investigations and D&Cs that I thought I had myself covered. How silly. I didn't have a clue about how bad it could get. But at least it was benign. I'm alive. How good is that? I just don't know what I can do, I'm seeing a new gynaecologist in the middle of September so I'm hoping they might be able to be a bit more helpful, I don't have much faith in the NHS anymore.
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Post by frisky on Sept 5, 2006 10:54:42 GMT
I feel very focused on myself. Almost in a cold and calculating way which is not me at all. I usually worry about friends and family first. Perhaps this is a good step forward
WARNING; God bothering stuff ahead. Don't read on if you don't like spiritual stuff. I won't take it personally.
A medium friend of mine keeps sending me messages about past lives. An old friend of mine in Spirit apparently keeps reincarnating with me. Well, I don't particularly want him to and I have a few resentments towards him from this life to be honest! I have far better friends I would rather have hang round eternity with! Is that awful? It's awful isn't it.
I mean I really feel terrible he died at 32 and I wish with all my heart he was still on the earth plane but I can't let go of some of the resentments if he keeps trying to contact me via mediums.
Oh dear, I'm a terrible spiritualist aren't I...
No need to reply. Had to get it off my chest.
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Post by Harvestgoddess on Sept 12, 2006 11:22:15 GMT
;D Hello thought after reading all your posts i should stop by and unload mine , like SH i had similer problems and had to have biopsys ect but im a bit of a wimp so when i was told i needed more tests ect i didnt go back im also 27 and i know i really should go but it was awfull im such a wimp honestly i cant stand going to the dentist so having to have my legs in styrips and my bits on widescreen ect It does worry me obviosly as i know i have to go back but ive put it off for so long and ignored it that i kinda hope i will get away with it Im not suggesting that anyone do what i have its very important to get these things sorted if only i could take my own advice I went to a spiritulist church years ago and the medium speaking said their was a man in spirit who was calling me a jessabell Fumming in front of all these lttle old ladies and i get singled out and called that , however he also said this man in spirit was sending me a white and tabby cat a coulple of months later my sons dad came home with a white and tabby cat i called tarot wasnt till later i remembered what the medium had told me but this cat is amazing ive always had pets ect but tarot walks me to tesco , if i take the kids to school he will walk me so far and then wait in the bushes to walk me home again , he knocks the front door to be let in he is wonderfull and so loving i dread the day anything happens to him But do belive that he was certainly sent to me by someone Anyway thats me unloaded LOL
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Post by odm on Sept 14, 2006 1:45:38 GMT
HarvestGoddess, I think that Cat is the spirit of someone you know who wants to protect you. I have a deep belief in spiritual issues in fact some things might send some people running for the hills. It does,nt scare me though. I have always felt particularly comfortable about spirits and souls. Talking about them is fine by me. I have had some exceedingly weird things happen to me which might put the goosefat on some We have those who want to take care of us..sometimes it will be for a period of time during our life, sometimes it is for all of it.., it really does depend. I think you are very inclined towards spiritual matters and for this reason and for your respect in this area it was probably assumed that you would 'understand' about this cat....who incidently sounds really cute....
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Post by battybetty on Sept 18, 2006 2:34:30 GMT
I found myself stalled in this thread for a long time, contemplating posting yet unable to really express the thoughts and fears that have been triggered. I identify, to varying degrees, with many of the issues raised here. Silenthill, beagie and harvestgoddess have managed to hit the most raw nerve, so my fears are probably closer to the forefront of my mind as a result. I always expect others to do as I say and doggedly refuse to take my own advice, so I know its incredibly stupid of me to resist dealing with certain 'stuff'. However, since these are matters that I've practically made a career of avoiding speaking of (let alone actually taking action about) I really can't explain my behaviour or describe the problems. So, I will remain quiet regarding matters medical, gynecological and psychological. I also know that people will have a tendency to tell me off for my foolishness and for that reason I probably won't dare come back into this thread again Yup, I'm about as stubborn as they come. I just like to say that, despite a very healthy fascination with the subject, Im really not a believer in spirits and the like myself. And I pretty much gave up completely on the god stuff several years ago. I left behind the catholic church in favour of putting all my belief in ordinary living human beings, as foolish, fickle and misguided as we are. But, for those of you who do believe, I respect that completely and sometimes I even think it would be nice if I could take solace in the same notions. I'm not about to change my mind though. I look out for myself and it may be hard at times and it would be nice to offload some of the burden but it keeps my expectations realistic and there's isn't anyone or anything else I can blame if things don't turn out so well. It'll all just be another fine mess I will have gotten myself into Stanley. Your all so good sharing your stories, I feel a fraud now posting here now. SH and HG, I hope you both manage to get to the bottom of your mysterious health problems and that you can get them sorted relatively easily. And Im really happy that smoif has been finding this forum a help with her own struggle. Fab! PS I have to say, the title of this thread made me smile. There is always way too much on my mind for my own and everyone elses good. Kindly point me in the direction of the 'off' switch please somebody
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Post by silenthill on Sept 18, 2006 9:10:33 GMT
I've got 2 hospital appointments today, one is for the gynaecologist and the other is for a urologist, so it's going to be a bit of a stressy one for me today, plus they are at different hospitals
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Post by andy100 on Sept 18, 2006 9:37:15 GMT
I've got 2 hospital appointments today, one is for the gynaecologist and the other is for a urologist, so it's going to be a bit of a stressy one for me today, plus they are at different hospitals Good luck with both the appointments and the rest of your day SH!
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Post by juliejuliejulie on Sept 18, 2006 10:25:33 GMT
Take care SH - we will be thinking of you *hugs*
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Post by carrickmac on Sept 18, 2006 14:11:38 GMT
I've got 2 hospital appointments today, one is for the gynaecologist and the other is for a urologist, so it's going to be a bit of a stressy one for me today, plus they are at different hospitals I'l be thinking of you ,I hope every thing goes well.
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Post by silenthill on Sept 18, 2006 16:17:33 GMT
Thank-you for all your good wishes At the Urologists I've been told I have Interstitial Cystitis and I have to take antibiotics every day forever as they will ward off the bladder nasties and symptoms, at least it isn't anything serious though. I've got to go back to the Gynaecologist within the next few weeks as I have a nasty looking mass "down in there", he thinks it is where I have been bleeding abnormally from and that other symptoms I've had have been caused by it too, he's going to do a Colposcopy and Cryosurgery where he'll freeze the offending mass and take a biopsy aswell. I'm not very pleased about it as another gynaecologist at a different hospital knew a couple of years ago that I had a polyp there and they did nothing about it, I'm now thinking that it may have been that which has gone bad I'm a bit worried but trying to stay calm and not think about it too much for now.
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